Red pill or blue - scared

Hi all. I'm brand new here. First day on the treatment. I've been wanting to try MMS for seven years and I'm finally sick enough that I thought I'd take the plunge. But I'm afraid. It's hard to see the conflicting views on MMS. I want to believe it will work - I think that it will. But part of my is so scared I'm going to melt me spleen drinking this stuff. Did anyone else struggle with those feelings? I mean on one hand I'm thinking, if they FDA says not to take it, it must really work, but on the other hand there are so many other voices saying not to take it, because it's bleach, and it will kill you. But then I come across this forum and feel like it's okay again. Did anyone else experience these conflicting thoughts?
Okay so day one has been ok. I've had mild headaches. I don't mind the taste at all, but the smell is horrible. I am mixing 3 drops MMS(Mineral Solution) and 3 drops activator. I feel discouraged because my blood sugars (I'm diabetic) are higher than ever. I honestly anticipated they would go down, even after the first dose - but not so. Does anyone who is diabetic experience a hike in blood sugar when they first started? I'm also taking MMS protocol for recurring staphylococcus boils as a result of my diabetes. Today I see the boil area now has a 2.5" red circle all around it of inflamed red skin. This is where I struggle with "am I getting better or worse?" Any thoughts or encouragement would really help. I'm scared to keep going - but I'm more scared to stop. Thank you!

You started taking MMS1 at 3 drop hourly doses?! Please do not do that. You must begin taking MMS1 by following the Starting Procedure. Then you can move onto protocol 1000, etc.

Follow the HRP in Jim Humble's latest book, MMS Health Recovery Guidebook.

What Katniss said..

Also you'll probably feel worse at first. Our bodies are full of toxins (whether we want to believe it or not.) As these are being released from the body, it's normal to feel a bit worse

Thanks Katniss! Of course I was doing it wrong. I will give this a try. A three finger solute to you (best movie ever!).